A friend of mine died last month. He lived to be almost 30, which is considered lucky when you have cystic fybrosis. I can remember babysitting him when he was just 2, and his mom had to walk me through all of the medications he needed. I can remember all the times he was in […]

Read the rest of Sadness and thankfulness, hand in hand

LOL not for any real reason.  Just as I read a message on Facebook about a severe thunderstorm warning, the storm was right overhead.  The thunder made me jump and my heart race.  Which makes me think… if the lightning is the dangerous part, why do we call it a thunderstorm instead of a lightning […]

Read the rest of With a racing heart

I started writing this April 30th and got sidetracked and discouraged. It’s frustrating sometimes reading the press releases from big companies.  The company I work for had a big article in the paper talking about how they’re moving a bunch of jobs from Oklahoma to the corporate office.  The press release said flat out that […]

Read the rest of Like arguing with a brick wall

I got a job search email from LinkedIn today.  In it, it says that my company is looking for people like me… Yea, they are.  They were trying to convince me to move to Cincinnati, OH.  I don’t feel right moving so far away with a step-son who needs his father living here.  He graduates […]

Read the rest of Gotta love the irony

http://www.danoah.com/2014/04/life-is-good-my-friends-life-is-good-even-though.html I saw this from one of the blogs I follow and started thinking. It’s so easy to focus on the negative, whether it’s stepping on something, or having your car stop working correctly. What happens when we focus on the positive? does our attitude change? Life is good, life can be good.  All we […]

Read the rest of Life is Good

If there’s anything that gives me a perfect example of how old I’m getting, it’s working 50 hours in a week.  And I still have to go in tomorrow.  I am tired. You’d think that sitting at a desk job, I wouldn’t be tired, but I was falling asleep on the couch at 8 tonight. […]

Read the rest of Ugh – I’m getting old

Sometimes I look at how my life is going and wonder how I can make it through. I know it’s a step by step kind of thing, but everything is so overwhelming when I just step back and look. Sometimes I look at the choices I’ve made over the years and wish I could call […]

Read the rest of Sometimes

I try not to say a whole lot, but I sometimes battle depression.  Like being shy in real life, it’s just part of who I am sometimes. Needless to say, the whole situation with work has hit me pretty hard.  Living with family for 2 years doesn’t help.  I think the constant stress is wearing […]

Read the rest of Hello, darkness, my old friend

I’ve been trying to figure out, when you lose your job like I am, how do you know the best place to look for another? Do I look internally? Do I look externally? Do I bite the bullet and take the time I have to try to build up my writing? I have 10 weeks […]

Read the rest of How do you know?