Rereading what I wrote last time, I meant that I laughed at the video because I could put myself in the place of the ones at the marriage ceremony that were getting attacked. I was laughing at myself more than anyone else.
I’ve been thinking about my father a lot today. One of my cousins on his side is a friend on Facebook, and more than my older half sisters, my cousin makes me think of Daddy. Even after 7 years, I think of him and miss him. I really wish he could meet my youngest 2 kids. He never even really got to know my oldest son. My nieces and nephew got to know him, but they’re not much younger than I am because my half sisters are much older. One of my nieces is 6 months older than I am. I watch my husband play with my youngest son, and I miss Daddy more. My husband does some of the same things with our son that Daddy did with me. My ex played different games with my oldest. It probably doesn’t help that an old ex’s birthday just passed, and like myself, this person is a child of a deaf adult/parent. Though both of his parents are/were deaf, and only Daddy was in my case. Sad, I just started to call this person an old friend, but we haven’t talked since a dear friend of mine died in 2006. That friend’s death left another hole in my life. He was the one who encouraged me to keep at what I’m good at. I haven’t been. I know losing my friend was nothing compared to what his wife and kids lost, but I shared things with him that I tell few others, even now. I’m not very good at letting people in to my personal life. I’ll share some things and not others.
I’ve been looking at my list of goals for the year. I’m making good progress on the health category. I foresee that my blood pressure and other factors will be normalized by the end of the year, whatever normal is.
You could say I’m spending more time with family… because we’ve had 2 snow days in the lats 2 weeks. But it’s not good enough. I need to be making improvements in the time I spend in the evenings. Ideally, if I can move like I want, I’d like to get a bike with a trailer for myself and the youngest, then have his big sister ride her bike so we can all get some movement in.
The new job… I’ve been spending so much time researching what I want to do. My goal was an hour a day, and I’m getting there, but it’s not the easiest to find the time sometimes. I guess anything worthwhile will require a lot of effort on my part, huh? Since I’ve strongly disliked my job for more than 3 years, I need to do something about the situation.